Captivating___

True living begins when we've live beyond ourselves.

mathilda would never forget that real yet simple fact.

True living happens because you started from the basics and continue to do the basics for the rest of your life.

Foundations and Fundamentals are important in our life.
to build a HDB flat, you need the blueprint, the floorchart to plan, hire workers to build the building and you need to buy an apartment in the building to live in it.
To live at storey level 10 doesnt come by chance. You got to build level 1,2,3..... and the list goes on.

Remind me that I must never forget my first Love, the reason i sing.

Reflections of the day: durians can be exotic delicious and maverllous. to some durians simply stink, and is super pungent.

Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. Hence, there is no right/wrong in many things. its just a choice on how you wanna approach something.

I am thankful i am a durian lover. and Thank Daddy for the delicious durians.. i hope you wont smell durians of me when i open my mouth..... MUAHAHAHA

dear peii, old kwok and dear huiling, we are meeting in less than 12hrs time! yay!

vis smiles*
7/27/2007 03:38:00 am

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= change, moving on and change. =

"Sometimes, words are all that we need to brighten our lives, strengthen our spirits and understand that difficulties are there to make a better us.

From Paulo Coelho’s book, “Like the Flowing River” where he wrote these words for the winner of the Nobel Peace Prize, Shirin Ebadi:

The Persian poet Rumi once said that life is like being sent by a king to another country in order to carry out a particular task. The person sent may do a hundred other things in that other country, but if he or she fails to fulfil the particular task he or she was charged with, it is as if nothing had been done.

To the woman who understood her task,
To the woman who looked at the road ahead of her,
and knew that hers would be a difficult journey.
To the woman who did not attempt to make light of those difficulties, but on the contrary, spoke out against them and made them clearly visible.
To the woman who made the lonely feel less alone, who fed those who hungered and thirsted for justice, who made the oppressor feel as bad as those he oppressed.
To the woman who always keeps her door open, her hands working, her feet moving.
To the woman who personifies the verses of that other Persian poet, Hafez, when he says:
Not even seven thousand years of joy can justify seven days of repression.

To the woman who is here tonight, may she be each and every one of us, may her example spread, may she still have many difficult days ahead, so that she can complete her work, so that, for the generations to come, the meaning of ‘injustice’ will be found only in dictionaries and never in the lives of human beings.

And may she travel slowly, because her pace is the pace of change, and change, real change, always takes a very long time.... "

vis smiles*
7/26/2007 02:19:00 am

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Refuge.

i sing a love song to You Lord
everyday everynight tell of Your goodness and mercy
tell the world how You rescue me
Pick me up from sin and shame
Your breath gives me new life

Where can i go from Your presence
Under Your wings I take refuge
Your Spirit lives within my heart
I know we'll never be apart

Everyday I draw closer to You Lord
I long to see Your face and Hide in Your embrace
all my life dwelling in Your Holy place
My heart O Lord You've changed
I'll never be the same
I'll never be the same.

vis smiles*
7/25/2007 02:27:00 am

my first sunday with my beloved!
oh man, this photo is totally BOYS vs GIRLS
we're at IKEA. this is my first time there!!

MALI feli~~!! :D

i simly love hearts and heart shape so much! look at my ealated smile!

a new friend made hehe.

then on MONDAY~~~

i tried to be funny with jenn, obviously only i found it funny..

and i tried to do the same to mel..

oh no! mel is so smart!

with hands like that, i need to meet people like spiderman *spusss**

looks like 2 innocent guai guai student.

its been sometime...

chose ME! hahahaa

oreo cheesecake for sam!

the male "zhu jiao"

of course, we simply love the toilet.

black!

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OKAY! i am going to jianfei... my dear friends.. pls remind me i am in the process of jianfei k! hehe thanks!

vis smiles*
7/25/2007 01:48:00 am

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= sublime =

i think that i am going to catch a flu pretty soon... been sneezing many times today...
and i manage to do some skipping! i am determined to be a Healthy and sharp Gek! and not a sloppy and ugly gek!

ok.
its been 4days to be exact since i am back.
been spending some time at home, with some friends and loved ones.
i always wonder about why do people keep blogs?

1) they're too eecc ( eng eng ceng ceng ) - > too free nothing to do in hokkien
2) they really love reported writing
3) they are pretty expressive in written format
4) they want to keep a track of their own lives ( this is wad archives are for )
5) to kill time. ( when people start to blog rubbish )

which catergory do you belong to?

anyway, thats out of the question.
I've been to town on tuesday and i went town again on wednesday. its the same building, i've walked the same tiles over and over again. But something strange is that, i never feel tired or bored.

- because i was with 2 different groups of people.

sometimes, places dont make any difference at all but PEOPLE really do make a difference. like, i can do the same things over and over again but with the people whom you feel most comfortable with you'll feel that time really passes so fast!

there's something a cgl from china taught me: you can be very busy and yet extemely happy still. because never never forget to carry the joy of the Lord at all times. May the joy of the Lord be your strength too!

i've learnt something today from a loved friend that he's not a person that just wanna touch your life for a moment and go. but rather, pressing in and doing so much more. I thought, i ought to learn that and make it a lifestyle. its so easy to touch lives.. but so hard to impact and transform lives.

yet, it still remains a joy to do so. :D

vis smiles*
7/19/2007 01:50:00 am

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= 珍惜；从身边开始 =

在这世界上，唯有家最温暖。
对于寝室里的那张蓝色方格子床单的床，也总算陪伴着我的不安夜晚，彷徨时候。
很感激的是，我有爱我和我爱的人
无论是在新加坡，还是在中国，我知道距离已不再是考验
最遥远的距离不是海洋；
最遥远的距离是思念。
思念的东西总是惦记着，但盼不道的。
然而，我很感动因为我从来没有孤单过
尽实一个人；我还是觉得你们一直陪伴着我。
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我回来了！带着30多公斤重的行李箱回来了。该是时候减肥啦！

for 2 weeks i lived without internet connection in China!

i guess time really flies ? it seem like yesterday when i bid everyone farewell at the airport.
its time to adapt back to singapore now, and speak more english! haha! i realised i've become pretty cheenafied when it comes to talking. Though i didnt bring back any weird slangs, but i brought back Mathilda, moulded and tested and desires to be stronger and more expressive!
i guess, this time it really made me realise many things that sometimes we tend to run away from our current situation or we leave things hanging in there. But leaving things there eventually dont solve the problem. the only way is to face it, and change our mindset first and change our ways to approach the problem and CONTINUE the process until..... yea. you'll soon then realise you wont regret one bit for trying at first ;)

i just caught Campus Superstar II on Channel U earlier on. Seen so many people sang, but only 3 or 4 out of 12 i thought really sang. Sometimes you can sing, but singing takes more than just a good voice alone. you need to have soul in your music. this applies to any other form of music. i guess, thats the special X factor that will captivate any kind of listeners. and i thought in music, you gotta to have body, mind & soul. Body: this is the basics. you need to tell your audience that you want so much of their attention that you need their eyes to be fixed on your performance alone. Little body language is appropriate. (personally i cant stand people without flambloyant personalities and they move too much on stage; it just make them look akward ) doing the right actions at the right time is important too! Mind: there are people who really have a nice voice but they are very afraid to showcase their voice range. i thought this is kinnda wasted you know! hence you need to overcome your mindset that you cant reach those high keys, if someone assures you you can, means you can! Soul: it really comes from the heart. if you are 15 years old and you haven gone through alot of things, you need to imagine how that situation feels. actually i thought the best way to bring out a song, is you find a point of agreement in the song itself.

oh yes, hahahah melo and us we figured out who's our fave guys and girls representing the 4 seaons.

heres my guy list :

Spring - zhang dong liang
Summer - jj linjunjie
Autumn -wubai!
Winter - zheng yuan chang

girls list:
Spring - Ella
Summer - Lin yichen
Autumn - Jolin tsai
Winter - Ayumi

vis smiles*
7/16/2007 09:33:00 pm

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= Post 260. =

the titile of this blog post is post 260.

actually, i dont know if i should count myself lucky or opposite, internet didnt get cut off after july 1st! and yes, i am blogging about this to kindda "celebrate" the extention of internet. The days of going home are coming nearer and nearer 13 days back home! I am excited!

did my chinese history paper today, i left a 1 15mark qsn out and 2 5 marks qsns not fully answered... but OK LAH, its really all about time management, I guess its better than what i thought from the previous tramatising experience at the first history test; my mind totally went blank back then. I was glad, this paper is a can do paper... the rest would echo: " of course! its an open book exam what! " well, you know what it feels to look at confident faces after the paper and they got every question done... hahaha yea, you probably could guess what i am trying to say.

anyway, 1 paper down which means, 1 last and final paper left. WRITING FOR CHINESE MEDIA... i am like... oh my tian, this is the only one i really am most clueless about... the way it is taught and the way it is being examed is very different! nevertheless, xianyujing... you must jiayou jiayou jiayou!

our room slept on average 4.30am today and we woke up for school at around 7.40am. I was glad that we had a heart to heart talk last night. all on our beds, you know this is only a lifetime once where you can have your buddies by your side and they happen to be your roomates and you guys chat will daybreak? ( alright, though its not kindda recommendable during exam period, but other times its ok right? especially when all of you are so busy during day time, catching up with each other would only be in the night time) =- >> suddenly i got reminded of Jenn, she told me this before.. alright many times though.. hahaha Jenn, i understand le! :D

i've come across people who really have alot of "close" friends( meaning close in physical distance) but in the matter of heart distance, they are millions and gazillions miles apart from one another. do you know why? this is because a heart too, has a door. unless you and your friend has a solid trust in between, and you have a strong sense of discernment then you could just remain quiet and silent all the time. otherwise, how would you expect your friend to know what you are going through and how you are feeling by avoiding? I often remind myself this few things, i too have a tendency to do so at times. dear friends, i really think that opening our hearts are so so imporantant be it in a friendship or any relationship with your parents, or partners.

to add on, this china trip is truly not only a trip that makes me realise who i really am, but who my friends really are too. and i am glad, our friendship is TESTED, MOULDED and TREASURED. hehe :))

i just read from chris3's blog.. he blogged about something both of us are very familar with:

" No one knows how much you know, until they know how much you care "

one thing i thought about..

" Never settle something great for something lesser. "

In 1962, four nervous young musicians played their first record audition for the executives of the Decca recording Company. The executives were not impressed. While turning down this group of musicians, one executive said,"We don't like their sound. Groups of guitars are on the way out." The group was called The BEATLES.

In 1944, Emmeline Snively, director of the Blue Book Modelling Agency,told modelling hopeful Norma Jean Baker, "You'd better learn secretarial work or else get married." She went on and became MARILYN MONROE.

In 1954, Jimmy Denny, manager of the Grand Ole Opry, Fired a singer after one performance. He told him, "You ain't goin' nowhere....son. You ought to go back to drivin' a truck." He went on to become the most popular singer in America named ELVIS PRESLEY.

When ALEXANDER GRAHAM BELL invented the telephone in 1876, it did not ring off the hook with calls from potential backers. After making a demonstration call, President Rutherford Hayes said, "That's an amazing invention, but who would ever want to use one of them?"

When THOMAS EDISON invented the light bulb, he tried over 2000 experiments before he got it to work. A young reporter asked him how it felt to fail so many times. He said, "I never failed once. I invented the light bulb. It just happened to be a 2000-step process."

In the 1940s, another you ng inventor named CHESTER CARLSON took his idea to 20 corporations, including some of the biggest in the country. They all turned him down.In 1947 - after seven long years of rejections! He finally got a tiny company in Rochester, New York, the Haloid company, to purchase the rights to his invention an electrostatic paper-copying process. Haloid became Xerox Corporation we know today.

WILMA RUDOLPH was the 20th of 22 children. She was born prematurely and her survival was doubtful. When she was 4 years old, she contacted double pneumonia and scarlet fever, which left her with a paralysed left leg.At age 9, she removed the metal leg brace she had been dependent on and began to walk without it. By 13 she had developed rythmic walk, which doctors said was a miracle.That same year she decided to become a runner. She entered a race and came in last. For the next few years every race she entered, she came in last. Everyone told her to quit, but she kept on running. One day she actually won a race. And then another. From then on she won every race she entered. Eventually this little girl, who was told she would never walk again, went on to win three Olympic gold medals.

The Moral of the above Stories : Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experiences of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired and success achieved.

You gain strength, experience and confidence by every experience where you really stop to look fear in the face.... You must do the thing you cannot do. And remember, the finest steel gets sent through the hottest furnace.

A winner is not one who never fails, but one who NEVER QUITS!

something off from the motivational examples i kope from Chris3's blog...
and truly i am sure the ones that truly love you will never forsake you or leave you no matter what happens'; even if you let go of your hands, they will still hold on.

Because they love you.

你还忍得下心来伤害真正爱你的人吗? please, i beg your pardon. dont.

vis smiles*
7/02/2007 01:29:00 pm

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