Captivating___

It isn't possible to love and part. You will wish that it was. You can transmute love, ignore it, muddle it, but you can never pull it out of you. I know by experience that the poets are right: love is eternal.

- E.M. Forster

E.M.Forster is the guy who wrote " The Machine Stops" while i studied Lit back in Secondary school days, those were the days. ;)

but yet, the love continues even till this day and yet.

apart from some angmorh stuffs, i love this slightly more cheena song, xiao wu gui.

You guys will get it if you watch the drama serial: weixiao Pasta. Hehe, its more than very nice, but more of a sweet and happy touch. Its not those typical shows that will bore you with draggy flows, but i thought the control of the flow is good lehs :) AND BECAUSE OF THIS SHOW, I like the lead actor so much la! HAHA zhang dong liang rocksss! :D ( melo will have to agree hehe )

小乌龟 - 张栋梁

la la la la la la , la la la la la la

这首歌要给一个人

歌声代替语言

深情只增不减

那一刻吻她的脸

地转天旋

爱的感觉

比樱桃更甜

双眼放送闪电

能超越极限

让人忘了季节

爱成了经典

为他付出所有爱怨

要你永远是我的小乌龟

我爱你

每一天

：）

vis smiles*
5/31/2007 10:48:00 pm

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The Three Little Pigs

Once upon a time there were three little pigs, who left their mummy and daddy to see the world.

All summer long, they roamed through the woods and over the plains, playing games and having fun. None were happier than the three little pigs, and they easily made friends with everyone. Wherever they went, they were given a warm welcome, but as summer drew to a close, they realized that folk were drifting back to their usual jobs, and preparing for winter. Autumn came and it began to rain. The three little pigs started to feel they needed a real home. Sadly they knew that the fun was over now and they must set to work like the others, or they'd be left in the cold and rain, with no roof over their heads. They talked about what to do, but each decided for himself. The laziest little pig said he'd build a straw hut.

"It will only take a day,' he said. The others disagreed.

"It's too fragile," they said disapprovingly, but he refused to listen. Not quite so lazy, the second little pig went in search of planks of seasoned wood.

"Clunk! Clunk! Clunk!" It took him two days to nail them together. But the third little pig did not like the wooden house.

"That's not the way to build a house!" he said. "It takes time, patience and hard work to build a house that is strong enough to stand up to wind, rain, and snow, and most of all, protect us from the wolf!"

The days went by, and the wisest little pig's house took shape, brick by brick. From time to time, his brothers visited him, saying with a chuckle.

"Why are you working so hard? Why don't you come and play?" But the stubborn bricklayer pig just said "no".

"I shall finish my house first. It must be solid and sturdy. And then I'll come and play!" he said. "I shall not be foolish like you! For he who laughs last, laughs longest!"

It was the wisest little pig that found the tracks of a big wolf in the neighborhood.

The little pigs rushed home in alarm. Along came the wolf, scowling fiercely at the laziest pig's straw hut. "Come out!" ordered the wolf, his mouth watering. I want to speak to you!"

"I'd rather stay where I am!" replied the little pig in a tiny voice.

"I'll make you come out!" growled the wolf angrily, and puffing out his chest, he took a very deep breath. Then he blew with all his might, right onto the house. And all the straw the silly pig had heaped against some thin poles, fell down in the great blast. Excited by his own cleverness, the wolf did not notice that the little pig had slithered out from underneath the heap of straw, and was dashing towards his brother's wooden house. When he realized that the little pig was escaping, the wolf grew wild with rage.

"Come back!" he roared, trying to catch the pig as he ran into the wooden house. The other little pig greeted his brother, shaking like a leaf.

"I hope this house won't fall down! Let's lean against the door so he can't break in!"

Outside, the wolf could hear the little pigs' words. Starving as he was, at the idea of a two course meal, he rained blows on the door. "Open up! Open up! I only want to speak to you!"

Inside, the two brothers wept in fear and did their best to hold the door fast against the blows. Then the furious wolf braced himself a new effort: he drew in a really enormous breath, and went ... WHOOOOO! The wooden house collapsed like a pack of cards.

Luckily, the wisest little pig had been watching the scene from the window of his own brick house, and he rapidly opened the door to his fleeing brothers. And not a moment too soon, for the wolf was already hammering furiously on the door. This time, the wolf had grave doubts. This house had a much more solid air than the others. He blew once, he blew again and then for a third time. But all was in vain. For the house did not budge an inch. The three little pigs watched him and their fear began to fade. Quite exhausted by his efforts, the wolf decided to try one of his tricks. He scrambled up a nearby ladder, on to the roof to have a look at the chimney. However, the wisest little pig had seen this ploy, and he quickly said.

"Quick! Light the fire!" With his long legs thrust down the chimney, the wolf was not sure if he should slide down the black hole. It wouldn't be easy to get in, but the sound of the little pigs' voices below only made him feel hungrier.

"I'm dying of hunger! I'm going to try and get down." And he let himself drop. But landing was rather hot, too hot! The wolf landed in the fire, stunned by his fall.

The flames licked his hairy coat and his tail became a flaring torch.

"Never again! Never again will I go down a chimney" he squealed, as he tried to put out the flames in his tail. Then he ran away as fast as he could.

The three happy little pigs, dancing round and round the yard, began to sing. "Tra-la-la! Tra-la-la! The wicked black wolf will never come back...!"

From that terrible day on, the wisest little pig's brothers set to work with a will. In less than no time, up went the two new brick houses. The wolf did return once to roam in the neighborhood, but when he caught sight of three chimneys, he remembered the terrible pain of a burnt tail, and he left for good.

Now safe and happy, the wisest little pig called to his brothers. "No more work! Come on, let's go and play!"

The End

vis smiles*
5/30/2007 08:36:00 pm

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you are the wind beneath my wings
help me soar with you when the storms arise
take my hand, lead me on
above the rocks, mountains and the skies
i will smile not becos its worthwhile
cuz you taught me to keep on keeping on
"take these wings and learn to fly
to the highest moutain in the sky"
i come to see, what are the things that are
so dear to me
and it will tarry till eternity, so i lift up my eyes
love's lifting us higher
in the midst of the horizon...

vis smiles*
5/26/2007 10:35:00 pm

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= More than enough for me =

something happened but i dont know
a hard and painful feeling my heart says so.
lifting all up to Him who oversees,
now i know what it is to see a ray of light
when everything's so hard to believe.

you won my heart over and over many times,
laying down for many, your own life.
even when every else fails we must stand.
do not give up until the end.

im sorry for not being there,
but do you know that i care ?
and do you know that thats the truth?

throughout the hardest season of storms,
sorry i wasnt there through the thorns.

still, your heart is with me
and i want you to know
theres no distance in prayer
and the only thing i could do, is to pray
for God to lift you higher than before.

--

one thing i know
His grace is sufficient for me.

vis smiles*
5/20/2007 10:40:00 pm

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I need to study hard.

*nods*

There seems more than just enjoying and living down here.

Grades still stands, and they are important!
HAHAHA
no point looking back already, i didnt do well for history test :(
i hope i can still make it in time to revise...

少年不努力老大徒伤悲 ..... dont wanna live a life of regret man! Finally i am done with ren ping's contemporary China essay. I guess tang meng might give us assignment anytime. Chinese Lit test and the reading of Hong lou meng book review is coming up.. Charm liao, i need to go to libary la! :S

by the way.. hahah its CHAN BI HUI 'S birthday today!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY BIHUI! :D

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fen,

thank you and i love you so much.

vis smiles*
5/16/2007 03:50:00 am

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= My celebrity look alikes =

haha got this from leekian's friendster page!
quite fun!
maybe u should try it too :)

vis smiles*
5/13/2007 04:01:00 am

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我是一艘飘浮不定的小船
在那海航中摇摇晃晃
带领我前进
寻找那能带给我安稳的靠岸
滔滔巨浪把我卷入里头
埋在朵朵浪花中
又飘在浪上面迎着风
大声狂喊志气高昂我唱着：
“风浪再大我也会勇往直前
我们的爱镶在青春的纪念册”

for the sake of living this youth once, and proceeding to adulthood in glory, lets live on with Hope in our hearts.
We arent perfect people but we have the right to feel and seek completeness when we feel so much of an inadequacy inside.

I aint strong,
but i am believing, and moving on.

=))
arent we ?

vis smiles*
5/11/2007 04:29:00 am

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i guess its really good and bad in way to have the internet connection till so late.
Good its because it open more doors for me to come online and get in touch with
whichever i want to be in touched which, not so good, because you'll get to learn that there are things which you hope you can do, but you need to accept the one true fact: you are physically away. and something that really stuck me so much after reading some entries from some friends who have came for this trip with me.

we've all come to this stage of life where we are used to use the surface to hit the surface. its either we wouldnt allow the real us to come into contact with the people we chose to be opened to, or we would limit things we would do or say to them. and i've come to realise that many of us are looking for a Friend. and that one true Friend seems like a standing ground, who never fails to encourage you in the darkest moments, maybe even not the darkest.. just a Friend when you needed him and yes. He is there.

we tend to really feel so upset over things that are happening around us, be it people who we cant accpet, surroundings that fail to met our standards or even people we see. However, we learn that at the end of the day, we became grieved over it, angry over it. And Every single day, it seems to pile up, nothing has gone down... everything has went up.. to the peak.
AND worst still, nothing changed. Not even the situation.

someone told me : ' dont you realise that after we've come here no one seems to be happy? '
i was finding so much reasons to debate with that someone, but ya.. I have to agree. Alot of the people here, are really unhappy. because a happy person is a contented person.

what is so important to them, their family and friends and even their boyfriends, became distant away from them. when the true fact is that we are only 5 hrs of plane ride and 3 hrs of bus ride away. But the question is, why do everyone feel so distant?

outside this room, or even within the room, there lies 4 masks. masks of not willing to show your hurts, your anxieties, your wounds your troubles your pains, and your... unseen tears.
you know who i am refering to. it could be you. you felt restless and hopeless, and maybe some nights the extention of the internet could not be a good thing at all. You felt like you could see the even more distance within you and your loved ones. you worry they might worry about you, but i tell you.. those who really loves you are really those who just want the best for you, if you're unhappy for a day they are unhappy for a day. you ever believe such a thing called telepathy? there are times i need no utter a word and yet, my mum knew wads going on...i thank God for mummy and I really love my parents alot.

FAMILY means - Father And Mother I Love You

This trip made me learn and see, that despite the seas of distance and raging seas of challenges, who really stood by me and believed in me. I am glad I saw a group of people. My parents and those i would lay down my life for.

My mum, for the first time in her 44 years learnt how to use MSN, Web-cam and icons in just 1 month when i was away. I remember about the times in the past where she would just tell me how she wished she is computer literate but she's not. I am truly amazed how distance taught mum to say "I Love You" where she only knew how to reply " me too". I am so loved, because I love her too.

My dad, always quietly showing his concern but Dad.. i just want to say I really love You. And you are the best Daddy in this earth. Thank You. :)

There are so many things that our parents could have done for us and yet we dont know, because they just didnt say it.

Many times, especially when we are overseas, thoughts of the future, about how or what will become of us, or even others could really borther us so much.. but one thing for sure, why worry for tomorrow when you haven fully enjoyed yourself to the fullest today? i am sure you wouldnt want to live every single day with regret or with hurts of yesterday?

A smile wouldnt end everything. A precious friend and mentor ever once told me this: if you dont feel like smiling, then you dont have too. we are all human, if we are not strong for this moment, rest and regain strength to get up. if we feel hurt, leave no grounds to nurse the pain, but setting on the eyes of what you would look forwad to. A more meaningful and fulfiled life.
there, I will smile again with you.

Just a few of you guys, i have been reading your blogs.. though i might seem silent, but i do feel heartache for all of you as you do. sometimes i pray i can be more sensitive to the words that i say to everyone around me, so i wouldnt hurt anyone or seem who i dont seem to be.
If you have been searching for a listening ear, may this entry prove you right that i have been listening, to the silent cries coming out from your blog entries.

Here i am.
and my shoulders are for you.

Brethen, i do not count myself to have apprehend; But one thing i do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press on to the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Phil 3: 13-14

i press on, not because i want to, thats because Jesus fights for me when i cannot myself. At least i know, there is someone who hears my cries when i thought no one did.
Because there are definately more things to look forward ahead, life is like a toilet roll. The faster it gets when its nearing the end, i hope our lives are not wasted over unhappy incidents but really being happy because there is someone who hopes you do! :)

vis smiles*
5/10/2007 01:39:00 am

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= my tree =

i was a seed, and you were a tree
you've found me and taken me into your care
as i grew up, i learn to see
what you've seen.

you told me to be strong,
to keep on keeping on when seas gets raging tough
i thought , " man it must be hard"
but you're like a tree,
standing still never wavered, any much.

I grew older and became a tree,
thankfully i was planted beside thee.
we withstand the storms together and
you gave me reasons to be strong.
i could still remember those nights , those words, those songs.

without telling me,
i knew and i saw what you didnt want me to see
i learned what you didnt want me to know about thee.
i didnt know what i could do and i want to do
but you know what
forever and ever
you are still my tree,
the one who picked me up and stood beside me.

vis smiles*
5/09/2007 01:35:00 am

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我看见天空很蓝
就像你在我身边的温暖
生命有太多遗憾
人越成长越觉得孤单

我很想飞多远都不会累
才明白爱的越深心就会越痛
我只想飞在我的天空飞
我知道你会在我身边

回忆的画面
记录的语言
爱始终是你手中长长的线
载着我的想念
飞过了地平线
你温暖的笑脸还一如从前

回忆的画面
记录的语言
你说要我学着勇敢一点

偶尔哭红双眼
你一定会了解
眼泪是我心中另一种完美

for mathilda :)

vis smiles*
5/06/2007 10:31:00 pm

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after the meeting, we settled down at the " stairway to heaven " korean restaurant.

uh hur and zilianing

i feel she's grown prettier and prettier since we first came hehe.
my dearest girl.

vis smiles*
5/05/2007 01:22:00 am

yuze told me he's coming to hangzhou today; hahaha yay and we met! its been a long time since we last met... and so i proceeded to " cong yi tang " for a special conference.

when i alighted from the cab.. i truly went.. HOW AWESOME IS THIS PLACE!

Beautiful.

vis smiles*
5/05/2007 01:09:00 am

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你，
一会看我，
一会看云。

我觉得，
你看我时很远，
你看云时很近。

- 顾城

(远和近)

vis smiles*
5/01/2007 04:33:00 pm

我相信　爱的本质一如
生命的单纯与温柔
我相信　所有的
光与影的反射和相投

我相信　满树的花朵
只源于冰雪中的一粒种子
我相信　三百篇诗
反复述说着的　也就只是
年少时没能说出的
那一个字

我相信　上苍一切的安排
我也相信　如果你愿与我
一起去追溯
在那遥远而谦卑的源头之上
我们终于会互相明白

:)

vis smiles*
5/01/2007 03:37:00 pm

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::achieves::
x July 2005 x August 2005 x September 2005 x October 2005 x November 2005 x December 2005 x January 2006 x February 2006 x March 2006 x April 2006 x May 2006 x June 2006 x July 2006 x August 2006 x September 2006 x October 2006 x November 2006 x December 2006 x January 2007 x February 2007 x March 2007 x April 2007 x May 2007 x June 2007 x July 2007 x August 2007 x September 2007 x October 2007 x November 2007 x January 2008 x February 2008 x March 2008