Captivating___

I really appreciate alot of things that many people have done for me, taken off days leave just to meet me. Thanks for all your sacrifices friends! Those who have a very packed schedule yet still made time for me, i am really very touched. Not to mentioned names, i know you could sense it. :)

Like i said, its really not how much you could want to do when somone's leaving, but how much you treasured that person when he or she is by your side. During the holidays and while preparing and packing for this trip i began to think that human are just weird animals.
We only will treasure things when we began to realise that we've lost them or are going to lose them. Frankly speaking, i laughed. I thought and i admit i am one like this, arent you too ?

For a moment, I just want to spend time with those i want to spend time with. If you think that you haven't disappoint me, i'm sorry you just did it too many times and got away with it. And I simply cant be bothered already.

i know things will definately not going to be the same after 20 weeks. Hopefully better and i am expectant and excited for a great future ahead. And more expectant for this trip. 4 months is going to be over soon.

Women are a typically weird species, they simply love to say the opposite. And I really dont understand either. They saw something which they really like and want to get it, but they simply wont buy it. Though their mind think in a way, yet they say it in another way.

"do you really like this? "

" i dont think so. "

this is what i mean.

vis smiles*
2/28/2007 01:06:00 am

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= 贴心守护星 =

星空银色上空月
我们小小的心愿
捧在手心望着天
说要一定到永远

你对眼望着我说
未来日子会很长
一定要勇敢面对
只要有你在身旁
我会用着爱的翅膀飞翔

你是贴心守护星
不用言语我们的默契
只要用心去聆听
你是贴心守护星
如此熟悉的陌生人
不知不觉慢慢感应到你

你是我唯一贴心守护星
我们不是安排而是注定
在此刻化成最美的结局

the feel abit like the previos song.
cos i was listening to it while writing haha!

vis smiles*
2/25/2007 04:09:00 am

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= 专属天使 =

专属天使 - Tank

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

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beautiful.

:)

vis smiles*
2/24/2007 01:07:00 pm

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= CHINESE NEW YEAR =

to everyone, chinese new year is a time of greetings, blessings and moments of "prospering" for the younger kids.

I used to think that cny would just be another day, just with more food, more people and COMMON conversations every year. (unlike some of my friends, none of my relatives asked me any funny questions. hahaha :P)

though the people might be the same,yet we get to see how people change over time either for the better or not so well doing, and simply marvel at how interesting this world is created in the areas of Human networking and relationships.

A particular incident happened to me just on the second day of cny whereby i accompanied my gand for some vistations. This individual family whom i knew since birth is obviously very rich and influential, not forgetting skeptical. But they can be quite nice if they want to. They have 2 sons, younger one married last dec at 26 the older one is RICH but single. So to move from house to house we needed cars to transport us, so i took the car of the older son with one of my cousins. he used to be my 'eye-candy' whos suave, cool and promising. it was the very first time ever heard him speak. to my horror, 8 out of the 10 words he spoke was either words of condemnation or vulgarities. My image of him was like *piang piang piang* shattered on the ground. From this incident, i saw how our words can really frame our image and impression in the minds and hearts of others.For something that could have even been well established for 10 yrs might be shattered in 1 second with 1 word. You tongue holds the power to life nad death so, SPEAK WELL! Or even so, desire to speak well!

In the evening, i proceed to ah gongs place and played with the dogs. Fen asked me how was ah gong, in reply i said : " as handsome as usual!" , and thats the truth. :)

later at night we spend it at max's and pud's place, watching S.H.E concert! while the rest enjoyed dry-swimming and eating. we were very blessed with pizzas and drumlets! and we decided to spend more time with each other at kbox after that.

I then recieved a call from a loved friend,hoping that i could help in his situation but there were really times when i feel quite helpless and depressed over his situation. If you happen to read this, just get over what you should get over and really dont nurse any pain. WAKEUP!!

I wouldnt say that i want to be too blunt all the time, but i guessed i have to and there's no other way.

God still shows a way when i couldnt see anything ahead.
He shines the brightest when my life is in the darkest.

vis smiles*
2/20/2007 05:38:00 pm

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my laptop crashed.

:(

suddenly, i felt quite helpless.
on this new yr day.

vis smiles*
2/18/2007 02:39:00 am

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after seeing wad sooshan has did, i decided to give it a try.

heres my results:

You are Judgement (Confucius)
Happiness, Content, Joy. -->> so zhun! haha

Judgment is related to the Hebrew letter Shin, which is fiery and spiritual. A break from the past, going forward.

With Fire as its ruling element, Judgement is about rebirth or ressurection. The idea of Judgement day is that the dead rise, their sins are forgiven, and they move onto heaven. The Judgement card is similar, it asks the resurrection to summon the past, forgive it, and let it go. There are wounds from the past that we never let heal, sins we've committed that we refuse to forgive, bad habits we haven't the courage to lose. Judgement advises us to finally face these, recognize that the past is past, and put them to rest, absolutely and irrevocably. This is also a card of healing, quite literally from an accident or illness, as well as a card signaling great transformation, renewal, change.

Take the Test to Find Out.

quite true. esp: " signaling great transformation, renewal, change." i like that. :D

You know the Bible 85%!

Wow! You are awesome! You are a true Biblical scholar, not just a hearer but a personal reader! The books, the characters, the events, the verses - you know it all! You are fantastic!

Ultimate Bible Quiz
Create MySpace Quizzes

take the above quiz its quite fun too :)
who knpws u might score 100%!

vis smiles*
2/17/2007 04:21:00 am

sharing chin choq with fen at chompchomp

under this tree, under the moodlight i had my ice cream. pure indulgence.

to make things clearer, i merely invited ltk to come forward and i didnt hold his hand.. just touch and erm only 3 fingers are on his palm! and i let go of his hand the moment he was "forced" to go forward! -- i am green white one... ~~ -- yuan wang ah~~

melo, u shld post the video soon and see who held who's hand ;)

( this is real crap, lets let the matter zzz rest hahaha )

anyway, today is a day filled with travelling and shopping. i met huiling at bugis to collect my customized shoes its really nice! white on the left red on the right with many many hearts!! hahha she commented that its supposed to be valentine's edition woooah.. jielin was there too, and she's really one very nice and pretty lady. soon after old kwok came to meet huiling in his new hiardo, i thought it suits him quite well too. I then left bugis and went to tampines to meet my mum. after having mos burger with her, we shopped at ntuc for new yr goodies and groceries. i then saw this worker in ntuc wearing the t-shirt : I LOVE MY DODO SHIOK SHIOK. (dodo. 200? )

oh! haha i love DODO, SHIOK SHIOK( dodo. 200? )

oh well, den went home to place the groceries into place and watched the 7pm show on chn 8 ( its nice!) den met mum at bugis again to last min shop. we really spend alot =xx

and for the first time i ate suan pan zi! ( its not counting plates, its a hakka traditional dish). its so chewy and good!! how much im craving for roti prata now...

vis smiles*
2/17/2007 03:18:00 am

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Jesus Christ is calling you
can you hear His voice
Jesus Christ is calling you
Its time to make that choice
with open arms and love He waits
Come to Him don't hesitate
as you hear His voice
Please make that choice
Let my Saviour pull you through

Jesus Christ is calling
Jesus is the Answer for the world today
above Him there's no other Jesus is the way.

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2 yrs back on a Christmas day celebration i made that choice.
I dint know why tears rolled down my face but back then, i just know that I needed Him so much more than He needs me to believe in Him. My life wasnt complete and something was missing. and i realised it was Him.

I wouldnt say life is very you zai xian zai now, but at least im stronger andI love Jesus because He first loved me. And this is so enough. More than enough.

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ive spend my vdae with my cg members at chompchomp & a nice ice cream cafe. I had a combi of honeydew melon & white coffee ice cream. It was woooh good!

i hope you had your way of enjoying today.

The only bad thing was my disappointing heels. cuz the heels broke, but one at a time. in the end both broke. and i walked very uglily. the heels is ard 6-8cm k, how to normal walk.
very kay kiang la, if i had known this sonner, i'll wear my slippers!

overall, its good and i ate zoot zoot ( snail's relative i think they look like miniature snails) . fen is rather pro at eating it. gideon had a glass of very cannot-make-it gamjiazui and hey mee. i'll return for the ice cream! definately ;) drools.

vis smiles*
2/15/2007 03:52:00 am

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after reading a blog of a loved friend, i decided to blog in this entry.

sometimes when we feel that we are depressed, and there might not be a single soul there for you and hence, we might tend to feel upset. For some people, they just got to battle with this feeling once and for all, but some its a total nursing process where things just seem to get worsen.

Afterall, i have to say, this is very normal, humans are just people with feelings and they need to be loved and cared for.

just want to challenge all of you today, ever remember those moments where you have to fight against loneliness and grief? Some late nights where you felt like doing nothing and just time slip off like that? What is your conviction based on? Feelings alone?

but the fact is that, no one can ever change the way you think about life. If everyone is doing something for you maybe not in a very big way, but still, yet you refuse to change the way you think, i guess things wont change either.

I do have moments where I need to battle against emotional struggles too such as wanting of attention from people around me. and i will realise i start to do funny things, or even thought of giving up. And at the end of the day, my attitude was really bad.

But by the grae of God, I realised by doing this, i no longer hurt Him alone, but I've hurt many others. Because I was hurting myself.

it really pains to see the one you cherish hurting him or herself and sink totally in depression and grief, and continues to walk in it.

Sometimes to many, when times as such come, to remain positive is something which is so hard to do, and they simply shut their mind from positive reminders but opened the doors to entertain negative thoughts. But at the end of the day, who is the one responsible for allowing negative thoughts to enter?

I would really like to express how i feel but not to address who or who so ever. That, at least love yourself and do the right thing. Thats the least i can ask of you. Do take care.

vis smiles*
2/13/2007 04:06:00 am

i just chatted with miss onghuiling online and she says she cant sleep cos she wants to make full use of her time to prepare for china. haha, i felt i should be more excited! These 2 days i'm involved with spring cleaning. Now you know whats Cif ( previously called gif ) for.

By the way guys, you know that church gave us one bottle of Cif and a sponge each???
of course the ultimate aim is to do SPRING CLEANING with your FAMILY and foster good relationships with them during this cny. I started laughing when i recieved that as a new year present, cause the past years we all recieve new yr angpaos or tangerines.

Anyway, haha im excited! tomorrow, darling and i will be performing superstar ;)
its like, we changed songs like a chameleon times. Been drinking Pipa-gao and honey today, i hope it works. Melo, you said its okay one, i trust u k!

On the 14th, haha i look forward to it too. Gonna spend it with loved ones on this special day.
Fen and i were talking about flowers, what flowers we like and stuffs; and yah i no longer like sunflowers like so da duo right( BIG piece). I quite like the idea of white roses or red carnations.

I still haven get my mp3, dunks, and a presentable thick jacket yet.

My little red shoes are with huiling(chenhuiling) so excited also!
hahaha so many exiting things!

And coming up on thursday, we're gonna celebrate cny! WOOOOH~ most exciting ever. :D

vis smiles*
2/13/2007 03:41:00 am

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" Charles Swindoll said, : The very best proof of your love to the Lord is obedience - nothing more, nothing less, and nothing else.

Obedience that endures to the end is a matter of setting our will to follow God. Remember that favor for this walk requires endurance and persistence, not perfection. "

- Darlene Zschech, The Kiss of Heaven.

It is okay to rest, Jesus fights when you cannot.

learn to handle your griefs today now.
So go ahead and face it.
Give yourself time, permit yourself tears.
God understands, He knows the sorrows of a grave.
He burried His own son.

But He also knows the joy of resurrection.
And, by his power, you will too.

( Max Lucado, Facing Your giants - unspeakable grief)

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God is at His best when I am at my worst.

:)

vis smiles*
2/11/2007 02:08:00 am

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weeks back, i've been taught photoshop in school and i really like waht i came out with.

you framed my world; fen.

Special Birthday edition 070207

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keep smiling gek.
:)

vis smiles*
2/08/2007 02:20:00 pm

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create in me a clean heart
as i come away with You
wash away all of my stains
and restore to me the joy i have in YOU

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mathilda will you smile again from your heart?
i hope you do.
i really miss your smiles
please be yourself.
i believe you can do it.
you are NOT alone.
it pains me to see you this way.
promise me you'll be back soon!

=)

vis smiles*
2/05/2007 11:39:00 am

需要一点勇气
来对你说对不起
他一直在你的心中
我还爱上你

知道这样不行
偏偏继续下去
怎么会有结果
是我想太多

没有方向看不清在徘徊
我知道我一定走不开
漫长的路寂寞的夜
在心里面哭泣的夜
你明白吗
只想在你的身边

我没有勇气没有力气
真的无法离你而去
你明白吗
只想在你的身边你身边
说爱你

需要一点勇气
来面对现在的心情
也许时间依旧
很快就忘记

知道这样不行
偏偏继续下去
怎么会有结果
是我想太多

没有方向看不清
在徘徊
我知道我一定
走不开

漫长的路寂寞的夜
在心里面哭泣的夜
你明白吗
只想在你的身边

我没有勇气没有力气
真的无法离你而去
你明白吗
只想在你的身边你身边
说爱你

vis smiles*
2/05/2007 11:17:00 am

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= Change =

we cant please everyone
but sometimes in life we really need to pioritise what is more important and what is not.
i dont know about you,
but i would be devasted to know that i've made the wrong decisions, hurt someone and not being able to amend the situation.
before its too late, why not do something to your situation.

if you know that a fire is burning, would you add kerosene to it?
if you know that a candle's flame is going out, would you not take care of it and light it again?
if you know that you need something so badly, why still not go and get it?
if everything is not going right, it must be going wrong.
since it went wrong why not do something about it?

easier said than done,
but it would be sadder if it never came across your mind at all.

embrace this hope and move on.

nothing is impossible to those who believes,
i am believing it with you too.

vis smiles*
2/03/2007 10:57:00 am

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well, im planning to get some nike sneakers for my china trip soon
some decent looking shoes
well, at least do something to my hair ?
you know girls hair, its either permed or rebonded aiya nothing special la?
hahahha most important, i need a new hp battery. the current one is killing me and driving me nuts.

here to announce, yes announce i agreed to singing at the cny farewell party for chinese studies.
i havent decide which songs i'll be singing though. old kwok suggeted "dui de ren"
well, that song is nice la, but.. i dont know if my voice will take off? it has been sometime ever since i last performed an item on stage. Its an individual performance i hope it do turn out well, otherwise i'll like to sing sunyanzi's lian xi. or grab someone to sing firstday with me.

im expecting my marketing test to be good.. mmm well, just be positive abit haha :D after the test, would be argumentative presentation - i haven thought of what to present.

rah, hahaha its going to be good!

vis smiles*
2/01/2007 02:50:00 am

many times we may think of giving up on somethings,
giving up when we're so afraid of handling hard situations,
giving up when we cant be borthered to make a little effort to do something
giving up when we haven even try at all.

giving up is easy,
moving on is not.
bear in mind that there are some things in life that we can never give up or compromise.
and we should ought to keep on keeping on
cos there are people who will keep on for you and with you

you are not alone.

do not solve a temporary problem with a permanent regret.
know His heart today.
He isnt someone who gives up or will stop loving you because you are less intelligent or did something wrong.
He love you the same.
How?
He gave His life away
for you and for me.

vis smiles*
2/01/2007 02:37:00 am

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::achieves::
x July 2005 x August 2005 x September 2005 x October 2005 x November 2005 x December 2005 x January 2006 x February 2006 x March 2006 x April 2006 x May 2006 x June 2006 x July 2006 x August 2006 x September 2006 x October 2006 x November 2006 x December 2006 x January 2007 x February 2007 x March 2007 x April 2007 x May 2007 x June 2007 x July 2007 x August 2007 x September 2007 x October 2007 x November 2007 x January 2008 x February 2008 x March 2008