Captivating___

= love, me =

I saw this chunk of infomation on my friendster site. I thought it meant something to me:

"Things may not be clear for quite a while, but you can live with the uncertainty.

Exciting travel is in your near future, although it might not be the same journey you had planned. Let go of your organizational nature and try to let this new adventure unfold naturally. Give control over to fate. Things may not be too clear for quite a while, but you don't have to try to make them clear. Simply live with the uncertainty. In some circles, 'uncertain' is just another word for 'spontaneous.' Incorporate more chance and fate into how you live your life. "

though fate is mentioned many times, but the fact that I can live with the uncertainity is something i really want to work towards to!

Come on mavis! You got to face the unknown and walk into the unknown and get used to the unknown!

* grins *

anyway, i just realised how long i didnt come online,i was rather shocked by the rate of blog entries that i had actually blogged over one week, one.

over a week, i've thought over alot of things and ya! im doing fine and still keeping on with my dreams, visions and desires. I'm not going to be discouraged, but stay encouraged and continue to encourage!

last friday all my lectures were cancelled when i got to school hence, mbm left school. together with mr lee kuan liang, we witness an accident whereby a lorry got skidded and overturned right outside sim. i was praying in my heart for the driver though we werent related. thankfully nothing happened to the driver, he still managed to get out by his own physical strength. but something's serious with the lorry la! pitiful lorry.

afterwhich, we went kbox. its been sometime since i last sang. thankfully, i thought it was one f the best sessions. i've actually improved in delivering the same songs, but in a different way. yay! we'll grow and we simply dont stay the same. this is life, and eventually we'll all go seperate ways, but we'll meet again one day :)

last weekend, haha i got to say its a stretch in the spiritual muscles! hee!

sunday ended off in a high note with ESCAPE ! $6 for everything come one la! so hua suan la! i enjoyed the ride which looks like mrt the most. it took me to a certain height and there, i caught a view of a nearby island. wow, its beautiful. more than the excitement, there is an atmosphere of peacefulness at that point of time in the air. that yakult ride caught me in a dizzy mode, but " love, me " was played on my way home my the PA systems in escape. I really love that song sung by Colin raye.

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me.
He said,"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down,
darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.
Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her,
his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down,
darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.
Love, me.

Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.
Love, me.

what a beautiful song on a cloudy night.

And soon, i reached home. Had a very nice and quality talk with mum. She told me of how people in society she knew could be so unfaithful to their spouses even after marriage. How couples got upset with each other and about their own marraige.

But i thought, even if it is so, if there is such thing called forgiveness, wouldnt it be just enough to reconcile? it might not be easy to forgive, but it is definately one of the greatest thing one can ever do to another person or experience from someone.

whats more when that person forgets. oh man, it truly feels great to be forgived!

i never struggle with forgiving others but i do struggle with forgiving myself for some of the silly mistakes i've made before.

hm... if you are just like me, why not lets encourage each other and forget what has happened? we never stop to make mistakes in life.
but lets learn from them
and never make the same mistakens again!
now i know,
for every mistake i make
i learn new way on how to not make the same mistake again.
keep smiling and walk on in life.
i'm walking
why not you walk with me?
:)

vis smiles*
11/27/2006 08:52:00 pm

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= Hope in You =

I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the LORD
In the land of the living.
Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the LORD!

vis smiles*
11/25/2006 01:39:00 pm

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= sunshine rain. =

till death do us part.

ziyu. puddly.( the more u shun the more still can take lor)

euphoria.

drawing near. i mean the rain.

1987 - a promise from mum to dad

faraway.

dejavu

sun-rose

in the mood for time.

poised elegance.

coincidence tuesday.

there'll be sunshine after the rain.

its time for laundry!

what else can a taitai do at home? lol

vis smiles*
11/17/2006 09:04:00 am

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= Tuesday =

to my deepest horror, i got to thank felicia for waking me up at 12.12pm.
thats the first time i opened my eyes ever since i last closed them. haha, you'll be pretty amazed how like a piece of cooked pork i was while i slept ever since i closed my eyes at 6am. But if dreams were to fill this period of time, i guess i would'nt even wake up?!! Cos i've always thought that being able to dream once in a while is a nice feeling. Its the only time when we dont have to participate in anything but just watch on and see how things just playback in our dreamland.

By the way, i was super angry at this idiotic guy who came and cut my queue while i was flagging at a cab for school cos that was the only option. He jolly well went in front of me and got into the cab!! can you imagine?? my mouth totally dropped to the ground like 3000meters in the deep blue sea la! NVM, i shall forgive him.

chanbihui, you are not in class today. How weird! there's no one to suan! Come back soon la! with a better stomach and better health of course. :)
congrats chanbihui, top in Modern Literature in Chinese Studies cohort girl! haha. what a pity you werent here, ray came into class during tongking's lesson la!!

today's lecture must be one of the best lessons i ever attended for tongking's. he introduced symbols to us while making notes for Ci. Dont know why, but definately he's one of the best lecturers available in HMS! ( i juse got reminded that we got to be very tactiful about what we blog) Arghh hahaha YES!!

went for a haircut, i dint really like it at first. But soon, i realise that i just need to change my mindset about it. actually its still nice in a way :D
cooked dinner and dad mum and i sat together and ate. I helped out with the household chores with my painted nails. agrhh, but with loads of joy of course!
dont really get this chance to cook, wash the dishes, keep the laundry yada yada.
hahaha i love my family!!

more than that, Somone took my heart away.
An everlasting love affair
=)

vis smiles*
11/14/2006 10:53:00 pm

How should this entry go?

I was woken up last night in the middle of the night by a cramp in my right leg. Still, the muscle is aching at the moment. Tonight is going to be another cold night. Better still, accompanined by music and the quietness of the night. Not alone, yet there is a undescribable sense of peace and rest. How great. How I wish tonight, if i were to wake up any moment, my heart would still be singing praises and lifting up my spirits. For it is such a pleasure to sing for Him, know Him, love and serving the same One.

The short breath taking walk from paya-lebar to eunos was indeed peaceful and fulfilling. A walk to remember. Good bye cheesecake and caremel for now. hahah OUCH! but i chose to.

I'm going to return bihui her CD later, this song called " ta he ta" simply captivates me to repeat my cd player.

haha shall attach the lyrics below ;)

他和她

他习惯把自己丢在热闹的场所
他以为这样可以掩饰掉落寞
她喜欢往这个城市最安静角落走
担心脆弱被人识破

他和她住同一栋
楼遗憾的是爱擦肩而过
他们孤独时候都望着同一颗星球
他和她都在城市飘流
遗憾的是心无缘邂逅
他们彼此适合却无奈的错过
在人群中掩没

他渴望能有人分享夜晚和失落
她最怕独自面对黄昏和脆弱
其实他们彼此距离才两三个窗口
不同的心一样寂寞

他和她住同一栋
楼遗憾的是爱擦肩而过
他们孤独时候都望着同一颗星球
他和她都在城市飘流
遗憾的是心无缘邂逅
他们彼此适合却无奈的错过
在人群中掩没

在人群中掩没

i think she delivered it welll. ")

vis smiles*
11/14/2006 02:21:00 am

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= change. =

there is a season for everything

a season to meet

a season to bond

a seaon to cry

a season to laugh

and..

a season to part

But most importantly,

A SEASON TO MOVE ON TO THE NEXT LEVEL!

we've grown stronger than before
yes you know, yes you know.
we've move on, better than before
yes you know, yes you know
we're gonna change this world.
yes we know yes we know.
I wont forget how it came all about
no i wont, no i wont.

=))

still.
thank you every single one who've helped me, been there for me, or have been a part of my life. its so different because it matters to people apart from myself.
its so different because i no longer live in pain,
i chose to press on to the higher call.

china,
send me i will go.

vis smiles*
11/13/2006 03:38:00 am

memoirs of a faded memory
left by an untold promise you gave
singing by the rivers in a moonlight
of a songbird drawn near this moment.
retell this old tale which all would forget
music rises upon our very breadth

if music is everything
then it just be.
mere words could never tell
how much it was supposed to be
with the songs unsung from our hearts
could everything land in simplicity?

the destination has always been so near
beside you, beside you but its no longer
when it has already went away
yet you thought it was here

your eyes werent fix on what you see
what went wrong with the troubled thee
the past has passed and the future will come
someone is already there; O with loving arms.

a new song will be sung
the old songbird soon grew old
she loses her first song with a faded voice
back to the skies and there she is,
seeking a new realm
a new cloud, a new horizon
beyond that silenced destiny.

--

if you think that this is chim, maybe you are right. cos i thought so too. LOL

vis smiles*
11/13/2006 03:03:00 am

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= NLY =

many times we do things just because of following a trend.

"oh, people buy thats why i also buy"
"people go thats why i go"
" people do thats why i do"
" people eat thats why i eat"
"people say so thats why i think so should be..."

People. people. people.

can you see that how important are people?

*grins

some people should stand out and say more words like I THINK, EVEN THOUGH, BUT.
( in the right context of course )

--

I hope she'll pick this one.

Aunty.

made some changes.

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it was a day of gown trying with mali.=))

Just some random questions, why gowns are designed so revealing??!! aiyer.. you know i still need to shred of how many Kgs to be able to put on a gown nicely? despite that fact, i got to say i enjoyed the process of it and to top it all, i got to bonously meet laoda, max and jenn at the end of the day! chunwah is finally back!

--

There is none like You.

vis smiles*
11/09/2006 12:56:00 am

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conquer the A's man!

Jiayou for your O's Niania!

too poor to afford a jacket each.

keep smiling, G.

at the lowest temperature.

a taitai dream.

looking very "teacher"

vis smiles*
11/06/2006 11:44:00 pm

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= Nothing will happen if you dont move =

many a times people simply just blame things on others for everything.

why cant i get married?
why cant i get more money?
why dont i get good results?
why cant my life be better?
why is my life so boring and meaningless?
why am i so sad or depressed?
why am i so confused?
why i have so little friends?
or even why am i still so fat?

well, believing indeed is something very crucial.
but working out, putting words into action is another story.

your life wont change if you dont move.
you wont get married if you dont propose!
you wont get more money if you dont work!
you wont get good results if you dont study!
you life wont be better if you want to step out of your comfort zone!
and It will continue to be meaningless and boring and in a routine.
you wont get happier until you want chose to be happy.
you are still going to be confused until you want to quieten your heart for a moment.
you will definately have more friends if you yourself is a good friend to others!
you will remain fat if you dont exercise! * mavis says AMEN! lol

for faith without works is dead.

make the right choice today.

not merely believing, but WORKING on it.

vis smiles*
11/05/2006 03:46:00 pm

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= "a love worth giving" =

something which strongly strucked my heart alot.
is life just living in a routine every single day.
is life just waking up in the morning going to school, finish school, find a partner, get married, have kids, age, sick and lastly die just like that.

if this is my life,
i rather not live it at all.
because i will always question myself: where's my purpose and where am i heading to?

is life just having a job and earning wages.

i would tell you,
its definately more than that.

when you begin to worry less for yourself and more for others
when you begin to care less for yourself and more for others
when you begin to pray and fast for others and not for yourself.
this is when true living starts.

living beyond yourself.

we may be depressed by one thing or other factors which evolve round our lives.
but if everything that you do, buy, get is for yourself..
then i have to say...
you really love yourself!
but the truth is: loving yourself and being selfish is differernt in the context now.

but i really want to love everyone with the love i experience from God and from His people.
love those who are hard to love and
love those who i dont think i will love.
This is unconditional, agape love of Christ.
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Back to school today, I've learned alot stuffs in Alfred's class. He did mentioned about crossing the roads in China can really be a pain in the neck. *hahaha* nothing offensive though. But he did mention about the roads are really hard to cross to get to the other side! So in order to get to the other side, an local Chinese lady was kind enough to hold both his and his mum's hand and get them across in the midst of the buzzling, never ending traffic in just 3 seconds!

This gave me an instant revelation on the promises of God.

Our walk in life is just like a buzzling road.

and the cars are of course a WOAH amount of distractions and temptations.
yet, our destination is at the other side of the road.
well, lets assume EVERYONE is aware of this fact.

some may try to stay where they are and wait for someone to lead them across.
some may even turn their backs and decided to stray and walk another way.
but

only few will chose to cling on to the hand of God and walk through this valley of faith.

That is why,
many are called, but few are chosen.

whether or not
I have the faith of a mustard seed to believe that those who are called,
will press on and will contine to press on still.

and the greatest thing is that,
if you can believe, nothing is impossible and hence what you though you need 30 years to have may just occur in 3 seconds!

God bless all.

=))

vis smiles*
11/04/2006 02:20:00 am

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= 很多时候 =

有时候生活的节奏实在是太快了
慢条斯理做事有时也是一种快乐

压力靠边站！
我要用我那最灿烂耀眼的笑容来迎接每一天

把眼睛哭得肿肿的就很好看吗？
我才不像这样呢。
虽然不少时候自己便不自禁的落泪。

心情是有自己定的。
做的有恒心、有耐力、有毅力、有梦想的人

不管过去是否对于错
是黑或白
蓝或红
只要快乐的度过每一天
让别人与自己一同感到快乐
我就满足。

容易知足的人最快乐？

快乐不需要理由
它是自然的
微笑吧朋友。

－－－－

When the seas gets tough, we can be tougher.

阳光总在风雨后

人生路上甜苦和喜忧
愿与你分担所有
难免曾经跌倒和等候
要勇敢的抬头

谁愿常躲在避风的港口
宁有波涛汹涌的自由
愿是你心中灯塔的守候
在迷雾中让你看透

阳光总在风雨后
乌云上有睛空
珍惜所有的感动
每一份希望在你手中

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹
风风雨雨都接受
我一直会在你的左右

I'll be there for you.
cause you're there for me too.
Even at my worst
I'm best with you. YEAH!

vis smiles*
11/01/2006 01:27:00 am

每天告訴自己一次，『我真的很不錯』

生氣是拿別人做錯的事來懲罰自己
發光並非太陽的專利，你也可以發光

愚者用肉體監視心靈，智者用心靈監視肉體
獲致幸福的不二法門是珍視你所擁有的、遺忘你所沒有的

貪婪是最真實的貧窮，滿足是最真實的財富
你可以用愛得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界

人的價值，在遭受誘惑的一瞬間被決定
真正的愛，應該超越生命的長度、心靈的寬度、靈魂的深度
愛的力量大到可以使人忘記一切，卻又小到連一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容納

不論你在什麼時候開始，重要的是開始之後就不要停止
不論你在什麼時候結束，重要的是結束之後就不要悔恨

抱最大的希望，為最大的努力，做最壞的打算
世上最累人的事，莫過於虛偽的過日子

當你能飛的時候就不要放棄飛
當你能夢的時候就不要放棄夢
當你能愛的時候就不要放棄愛

用最少的悔恨面對過去
用最少的浪費面對現在
用最多的夢面對未來

快樂不是因為擁有的多而是計較的少
如你想要擁有完美無暇的友誼，可能一輩子找不到朋友

你不能左右天氣，但你能轉變你的心情
好好扮演自己的角色，做自己該做的事

vis smiles*
11/01/2006 01:22:00 am

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::achieves::
x July 2005 x August 2005 x September 2005 x October 2005 x November 2005 x December 2005 x January 2006 x February 2006 x March 2006 x April 2006 x May 2006 x June 2006 x July 2006 x August 2006 x September 2006 x October 2006 x November 2006 x December 2006 x January 2007 x February 2007 x March 2007 x April 2007 x May 2007 x June 2007 x July 2007 x August 2007 x September 2007 x October 2007 x November 2007 x January 2008 x February 2008 x March 2008