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= Lost in Your alone 71 =

Lost in You alone.

Is where I wanna be.

To hear Your voice.

Softly in my ears

You wispher words to me.

That I am Yours..

Cant live a day

Without Your presence

Closer to You I wanna be.

My soul cries out for more of Your my LORD,

My Portion and Hope,

I close my eyes

And feel You near

There's nobody else

That can take Your place

IN my heart.

I just want to be lost in the presence of God.

Its been a whole day..

Not really in the mood of doing anything now. * probably due to the misty weather*

But just loving God and worshipping Him.

Wanting to get closer and more intimate with the Holy Spirit.

Bible study class with Pastor Audrey today was awesome. I always felt that this bible study class, i made alot of new friends and truly.. they are awesome! Everything about God and His people is.. AMAZING !

E405 rocks! Lord, show Your kingdom come! Your will be done!

vis smiles*
3/30/2006 10:41:00 pm

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= How do I live without You. =

How do I live without You ?

Torn.

Only Love.

You raise me up.

Goodbye.

* Jesus, I give You my heart *
* Never, will we be apart *
* Move in me*
*Change my life*
* Jesus I give You all*

vis smiles*
3/29/2006 12:51:00 am

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= when words fail. music speaks =

when words fail. music speaks. do you think its true ?

but when someone expects some words from u.. ahem. did u say it ?

anyway.. i was just thinking that perhaps i was just wasting my time, wasting my youth.
as well as testing my patience. anyway, i emerged victorious.

why do u want to make me guess every single thing?
a girl's love needs ur confirmation. u noe that ?
i can sense that u are trying to get my attention. approving of who i am to who u are.
but... something is lacking. i am giving so much. shall it end just here ?

its time to proceed and to go on...

I am glad Jesus You are faithfuL!

vis smiles*
3/26/2006 11:23:00 pm

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= post 68. Hugo boss. =

Post 68 Hugo Boss.

Oh well. whats the big fantasize about Hugo Boss ? A colleague of mine was haunting me since that day i went got an interview. till today, its day 04 at this company. anyway.. things are doing better..

spiritual .
work.
family.
maybe.. him.

Thank God.

vis smiles*
3/24/2006 12:46:00 am

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= First day Prudential =

Day 01 at work @ Prudential.

When you met a flock of unusual people, speaking the same tongues, in the same working environment, you wouldn't want to know what I am going to blog next. A 10minute walk from Tanjong Pagar Station would bring you to the place of business, deals, exchange or maybe, "friendship".

Attached to beidge colour device invented by a fella name Alexander Graham Bell, from the hours of 6.30-9.30pm today. The very next day, the clock would gotta change from its usual ticking method it gotta tick from 2pm to 9pm with an interval from 5-6pm. "Do not forget to eat dinner" reminds the clock.

Day 01 always ended up well.. average. But Day 02 is going to be extraordinary, and I mean it. The one above me, my boss, is the opposite of a male, having long hair and a sense of good fashion all around her. She's another detailed person I've met in that current building apart from my interviewer. Words to describe the man : he simply walks too fast.

In this world, plenty of people are rushing here and there for plenty of reason. but many times, we bound to lost track of what we've missed while we rushed our time away; love & sympathy. If Chen wei lian were to sing till his lungs out, how much could he earn a day ?

God, my faithful Friend, Rewarder, Redeemer. You have it all.

vis smiles*
3/21/2006 12:38:00 am

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= New Blog design =

NEW BLOG DESIGN! But not by me of course.
I was even told by alex that pam got the same blogskin as me. But, hahaha.. I just went ahead.. Cuz i really really liked this skin, probably thats what we called affinity. Ceasing the moment. and lastly, seasons.

My whole mind is still spinning like a spinning top, going in rounds and rounds.. Seems like times of the Cameron Highlands trip being flashed back once again.Pain was being reminded into my mind, but on the other hand, courage and faith is introduced at this very moment. Lifting all these up to my dearest Saviour, entrusting all would turn out well. Moments that captured the both of us, and even others who perfected the situation. Well, I guess...nothing could be as beautiful even if time could be turn back. But without pain, nothing would taste any sweeter at the very end.

I guess, God has His plans.
Just like what we sang in Cg today.

Sometimes His way we might not understand.

But no matter what is it, God, I wont want to let go of you. I'm Yours.

Anyway, cg today was fun fun and fun! I guess it had been a tiring week for all of us, the leaders, as well as the members. Friendship connection came to a close, but the kingdom and the salvation of our friends should never come to a close. I've always love people and wanting to know so much so much about their lives, even to the extent of forgeting myself.

I was truly glad that this term break would be the most exciting and yet extraordinay one. Too many happening things are going at the same time and I am the main character in of my life. Once again, welcome to my life.

vis smiles*
3/20/2006 02:29:00 am

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= From above =

looking at the gaze of ur eyes
at all cost i wont let you go
even when tongues utter
" look and behold"
it seemed true, it seemed real
I wouldnt believe it till it came up here.

could we be just more than friends?
i wonder if this is just the end
in an blink of eye when time will end,
i know that u are the one i can depend.

ending me ur shoulders when I tear
embrace me in ur arms when i'm in fear
i would not question you one silly fact
" do u love me, my dear man? "
for our hearts met each other
sealed with the blessings from above.

each time i think of you my mind is filled,
with questions and questions like a a hill.
is he thinking just of me?
will he know how i really feel?

But I know, In God's hands u are safe
Even if time were to challenge us
Everything, every part of you would remain
In my prayers,I
n my world,
In my heart.

+majie+

vis smiles*
3/18/2006 03:00:00 am

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= confusing =

God.. please tell me why do things have to be so confusing..
when things are going in rounds and rounds..
in the end,
it might be the same person.
it might not be.
when was last time ?
when was before?
why ??

God i trust in Your ways.
love is sacrificial
sometimes weird..
hard to understand.
u wouldnt even realise if the main character is u.

to him ::

I didnt noe why, it might be all God planned, that this time. 1.47am i got to know that I was the one. Time seem flying fast, I hope Iam still there(in ur heart), bcos in my heart, you've never left. All I do, the distance kept, is for ur good. focus on ur studies.. God is true and He is real. We will get there. U playing king, and i queen. if iam still the one then.

thereasonfornotbeingurs.forurgood.

vis smiles*
3/16/2006 01:47:00 am

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= Post 63 =

Post 63...

Heys ! i am so glad that I am able to blog again.. Have been resting early for 2 consequent nights and of course, they helped me greatly in recovering back my voice.. I promised Daphne and Winda that we'll go out tomorrow to catch a movie.. yea, mavis i know what you are thinking.. you will either get even sicker.. or pass the germs to them. But thank God, its a movie.. I pray for protection to come upon my friends ok! that I will not spread it to them or get sicker myself..

Hm.. I am TAKING PART IN THE SPELLING BEE COMPETITION! I truly pray I can spell.. and at least memorise that 500 wors in the prelimary round. =) * its time to get down to learning how to spell mavis*

Spiritually, I am doing fine.. and ON fire for the Lord ! I really really want to see His kingdom being established on earth. Seeing the salvation of my friends.. well, I never want to sell my religion or anything. Christianity is never a religion.( I guess I have repeated this line upteen times in my blog). Instead, it is a relationship with God. The more I committ myself in His kingdom, the more I realise that life is sweeter and filled with hope. The unchurhed may think : Where is God when disasters happen? why do harm come to people. Why do people get sick and die ? But the truth is God laws are simply like traffic laws. Can you tell the Minister of Traffic to stop car accidents from happening ? The same goes for God and life. In life, some people are destinied to live longer while some, shorter.

The greatest part about God.. He never let go even when I am unfaithful towards Him. :)
Forgive and Forget is what God is all about. I am really excited to see how God can change the lives of my friends now. Its really burning in my heart now.. You people whom I have been reaching out to... Your names... Your names are burning not only in my heart, but God's heart.
its really the time of SalvatioN!

To my unchurch friends, haa.. I truly love my God.. :D so bear with it. or u will get used to it soon :)

Something which I am VERY concerned about. I am going for an audition for CHC choir on 26 March. Currently, I cant even hear my own voice. So.. HEALING will come upon me.. What I see now is not what it will be.. But instead, what is invisible to the naked eye is what it is going to be. For faith is the substance of the things hoped for, evidence of the things unseen. I will get HEALED in Jesus name!

With responsibilities coming in, I belive that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! In You, Lord.. I place my trust in. I heard that I going to be taking over the campus outreach in Np.. Seriously speaking.. I am REALLY EXCITED !! heehe.. words cant express how i feel for people in Np now.. And I truly look forward to taking part in the Parade of Schools for EMERGE 2006. So many cool and happening things are happening.. like a dream.
Sometimes, I am really glad that I brought Yifang back to Daddy. Seeing her grow is equivilent to seeing myself growing from square one..

Still, there are some areas of my live that I really want to submit it to God. God, I know that Your are answering my prayers to forget him. I am glad that I am able to place him aside already. =) However, I am confused in some areas though..

Issit... M? K? Z? or J?
But God, even if they never crossed my life at all, I never want to let go of You..
M is very witty, and sweet
K is very capable, sensitve and thoughtful
Z is very faithful and filled with determination
J is a nice guy buy I never liked him.

The answer is in His hands.

+ ( You alone ) +
my life is on the altar,
i give my heart to You
in You i've found my purpose
my reason for living is You.

You are my source and my salvation
Nothing compares to You
All of my life I've longed
to know You more
Holy Spirit pour down like water
I m hungry for Your touch

Each breath I take
I give my all to You.

vis smiles*
3/13/2006 03:09:00 pm

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= Post 62 -- sorethroat =

POST 62-- sore throat :(

I am going to sleep now... cause I am suffering from sorethoat..
its one of the saddest thing that can ever happen to somone who
regards singing as her passion and life. But however, I have a mighty God who heals !
No weapons fall against me shall prosper.
I need to dwell more in His word
and serve Him more...
I see so much of a need to build my spirit man up.

Anyway, I really hope i wont suffer from diabetes..
cos i've been drinking alot of honey water these 2 days..
Amen.

+ I feel Your peace +

vis smiles*
3/11/2006 02:21:00 am

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= Our promise =

Today was a day of enjoyment and spending money!

Daph, Win & I went to chill out in town. Guess where we went for lunch. Ding tai fung.
I have big hole in my pocks now. Anyway, according to the report of my financial status, i am broke now.. its only the beginning of the month, God I need to be more discipline.

Where did the money go ? Alright, lets just track back...

1) Ding taii fung lunch
2) My Mickey Mouse top
3) My "guess" watch =x
4) My Loud earing
5) Topping up of my ez-link card

okok... its a list already. Anyway, I do like the bag Miss Winda Kusumo bought today...eh, dont think I will be able to get a bag this month ler.. I still have a kbox session with pei & gang. =))
I speak financial blessing in Jesus name!! =D thank God before hand. I was glad that this holidays, I am managed to get in touch back with u friends and stuff.

Sometimes I didnt know why.. I know I've changed, you guys knew it too.. Its just that.. this change is not overnight... eh. I didnt know how to explain either. Sometimes i wished i could be more loving towards people and more selfless and more Christ centered.

Anyway, Daph, win and me we all got the same kind of watch!! ( guess which is the real Guess watch ) hehe.. its fun.. we're gathering again! For spa, jaccuzi and sauna.. its gonna be great!! aww... but can i forget about the swimming part ? I hate to get dark.. :((

Playlist :

1) Maia Lee -- zhi guai wo
2) Guang Liang -- yue ding
3) Guang Liang -- dou shi ni
4) S.H.E -- tian hui
5) S.H.E -- yue gui nv shen
6) Landy Wen -- yan lei zhi dao
7) Landy -- neng bu neng
8) Cao ge -- bu lang man de jia huo

Ciao...

I love Jesus...

vis smiles*
3/09/2006 01:27:00 am

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You entered: Sin yoke jing mavis

There are 16 letters in your name.Those 16 letters total to 76There are 6 vowels and 10 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4
The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 3

A Soul Urge number of 3 means: With the Soul Urge number 3 your desire in life is personal expression, and generally enjoying life to its fullest. You want to participate in an active social life and enjoy a large circle of friends. You want to be in the limelight, expressing your artistic or intellectual talents. Word skills may be your thing; speaking, writing, acting, singing. In a positive sense, the 3 energy is friendly, outgoing and always very social.
You have a decidedly upbeat attitude that is rarely discouraged; a good mental and emotional balance.

The 3 Soul Urge gives intuitive insight, thus, very high creative and inspirational tendencies. The truly outstanding trait shown by the 3 Soul Urge is that of self-expression, regardless of the field of endeavor.

On the negative side, you may at times become too easygoing and too optimistic, tending to scatter forces and accomplish very little. Often, the excessive 3 energy produces non-stop talkers. Everyone has faults, but the 3 soul urge doesn't appreciate having these pointed out.
Your Inner Dream number is: 1

An Inner Dream number of 1 means: You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.

vis smiles*
3/08/2006 02:42:00 am

Post 59--------

I didn't thought that i can actually last till post 59 when i started this blog. =))
Anyway, that is not the main point..

I just realised something about myself, someone's becoming more and more aunty, but heh, at least I am not a tomboy! I suspected I was, so I bought skirts, make-up and handbags.
True enough, I am NOT. Haha, nothing is wrong with myself. PRAISE THE LORD.

All right.. I dont know what I was crapping.. Yuxuan is going to leave for army soon.. haha.. we'll miss him for 2 weeks.. seeing him in botak, oh man.. seriously i cant imagine..
Neither can i imagine what will happen to this married cg in late march..
But whatever it is, God.. I live for You and Your promises! I am going to be obedient..

I shall add this next time i blog.. nono its everytime.. PLAYLIST !

Playlist:

1) Yu heng -- yi ran shi peng you // still friends
2) han hong. Sun nan -- mei li de shen hua // the myth
3) a*mei -- ren zhi // caught up
4) a*mei -- wo yao kuai le // I want to be happy
5) Angela Zhang -- yin xing de chi pang // Invisible wings
6) Jason & Lara -- Say You love me
7) Li sheng jie & Lin Long xuan -- Ni na me ai ta // You love her that much
8) JJ lin -- yuan lai // actually
9) JJ lin -- zhi dui ni shuo // its only for you
10) JJ lin -- caocao // history maker
11) Power station -- dang // when

vis smiles*
3/08/2006 02:04:00 am

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Yeah.. i am a lazy blogger.. its always : " so many things have happened since i last blogged" haa.. somewhat, everyone need to get used to it ok ?

Its very fun during service and cg this week because it was truly a stretch of my capacity for me.. anyway, it has always been in this way. On sat, I merely got to sleep for half an hour and i lasted for the whole day.. though i did complained here and there, but i thanked u guys for bearing up with that. its all pms yes? lol. Girls are weird species that u guys have to take time to understand..

The Master series talk on music composing was truly cool and great. Brother KC was there!! wow... amazing.. i didnt realise that he's really very passionate in music.. ( big drop my specs )

Anyway, by faith, i prayed for my uncle.. though God didnt heal him immediately, but our relationship improve.. and i recieved an open heaven.. to give tuition.. and ... income might be on my way... God.. u are worthy.. its too good to be true O Lord!! I'm truly jumping with joy ~

anyway.. i am really tired... cant think much at the moment.. I miss melody, bihui and class and school. we shall get together one day.. and meet up..
it

* its a girl's thing*

vis smiles*
3/06/2006 01:22:00 am

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::achieves::
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