"even when tears will fall down like rain,
never give up."
No matter how hard it seems
It's time to put on another smile
living beyond yourself for today
living for more than just me everyday
living for the Truth and nothing's gonna change that
++// mavis
++// 19
++// 17 aug 1988
++// poly yr 3 cum nie student, chinese teacher to be
Sunday, November 20, 2005
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Its been sometime since i blog. And hence, i might be quite laggy in my info. But nvm, i just feel like blogging today.. Its saturday night. And, the night is still young. I simply love saturdays cos it gives me a special moment of attachment to something i never can describe. But never the less, i still love saturdays as usual.
Saturdays without cg meetings is rather less busy. but never take it for granted. I still missed having cg meetings. I really want to be of more courage and really seek God more. Yup.. really thank God for always being there. And my cg too ~ you guys are simply great.
I guess, over a period of time, my that guy-phobia is coming back again. I was like.. WHAT !! i am really afraid of guys now, not that i am not interested in guys, its just that.. i feel scared? hm.. should pray over it and see how it goes bah.. I simply cant stand getting near to them or even talk to them. Worse still, talking to them!! Over msn i do not have this problem but in real life, i do. I even treat best guy frens coldly and stuff... erm... i am really confused!! Maybe perhaps my class is really filled with girls. I simply cant stand the presence of guys bah..
God...wei xia mi an neh... really dying to get a guitar soon so that i can worship God.. hee... Anyway, i realised that my dream now is not to aspire to be a vocalist, but a mother. A mother of 2 kids. Really, i just want to lead an ordianry life. but a life which loves God.
Been fellowshiping with my mum today for the whole day and i really enjoy the presence of my mum.. she really takes good care of me as i am really sick today and i dont feel that well, she's been cheering me up though. Thanks Mummy!! i love you! She is one of the reasons why i want to be a mother next time. I love children !!
Anyway, things are getting complicated but i know i can trust God and His will. I want to walk the way in which is instructed by Him. i am rather tired now. going to rest soon. shall update again.