"even when tears will fall down like rain,
never give up."
No matter how hard it seems
It's time to put on another smile
living beyond yourself for today
living for more than just me everyday
living for the Truth and nothing's gonna change that
++// mavis
++// 19
++// 17 aug 1988
++// poly yr 3 cum nie student, chinese teacher to be
Thursday, August 11, 2005
= Pressurized ! =
I am so stress and being pressurized now.. What happens if the person you see everyday beside you is hyper hardworking in a abnormal way, and good in the academic areas of her live? I can't help it.. seeing someone close doing off so well in the areas of studies..
And the kiasu way they will take notes, and copy ur style of taking notes and stuff.. I am just stressed.. AHHHHHHH!!! need to fa xie yi xia.. haiz.. recently, spirititually i am not doing very well.. i didn't know well. until todae, i realised that when you lead an irregular prayer life, everything just gets affected. therefore, i truly appreciate God loving me all these while when i really ever thought of backsliding. Now, i really want to love God more and put in my effort to love Him.
I am really stressed.. I know thru being the state of being stressed, we'll grow somehow. I know i know. I suspect i am in the state of depression yesterdae.. that was horrible, i kept washing my hands for no reason.. I think that i kept quiet for a long time. without uttering a word. NOW, thats real bad.. cos my mind was totally in a blank.. and this doesnt happen once or twice..
I really cannot imagine.. i am beginning to see more flaws of people den the good sides.. this world is not a beautiful world.. OMG.. i cant believe wad i've typed.. nvm..
Its okay.. deep down i am really broken actually.. whats the point of having people saying that you're good in singing ( well i didnt say that ) when your family is strongly against you of all ur dreams.. THEY SAY THAT IT WAS A WASTE OF TIME, A PIECE OF RUBBISH. Why cant they just support me in my areas of my dreams..
Guitarist, i really envy u in this area.. Your parents are supporting u in the area of ur dreams & destiny..I am really very stressed.. when u have a cgl who is abit demanding.. i am actually very scared.. scared of her.. I didnt know why... i haven been having peace for a long time..
Lord... i need Your grace.. I want to cry.. Like never before.. Gonna go studying liaos.. having a big big test on mon.. haiz.. SOCIAL PSYCHOLOGY & HUMAN COMMUNICATION * PENGS * jiayou mavis !! u can do it !!